Smudged.

Friday, August 31, 2007, 6:01 AM

YOU'RE ADDICTED TO ME.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG.
I FEEL FREAKIN HIIIIGH!!!!(((((:
ANYWAYYYYY!
I SKIPPED SCHOOOOL TODAY.
SO FREAKIN BORING.

SO I SLEPT TILL LAAAATE.
RE-WATCHED ONE TREE HILL!!!!!!CHAD<3
AND THEN I BAKED RAINBOW COOKIES(:
AND IT TASTES D-E-L-I-C-I-O-US!!!mmmm....

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!
NO MORE SAD, HEARTBREAKING POSTS!!!!:D
YAY!!!!! OPEN SESAME!!! SEPT HOLS OPENS!!!
WHOOOOOOOO!!!!
ITS GONNA BE FUNFUNFUN!!!!!!!! :B!

PLUS.IM GONNA STUDY HARD(:
AND DO WELL! AND THEN I CAN HAVE FUUUUN AGAIN!!!(::::
OOOO LALA!!!!
YAY!!!! IM GOING TO CHERI'S HOUSE TOMORROW!TOMORROW!
WE GONNA HAVE FUN DUMMYS!!!!!

I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I DANCED CRAZY FOR LIKE 45 MINS IN THE ROOM.
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

OHOHOH!!!!
I CLEANED UP MY PRECIOUS STINKY ROACHY GARBAGE CLOSET(:
AND I FOUND PLEEEENTY OF G-STRINGS!!!
AND CUTE PANTIES.
PLUS!
I FOUND ALOOOOT OF $$$$$$!!!!!!

Thursday, August 30, 2007, 6:36 AM

YOUR HEART, JUST LET IT POUR OUT.

sweet(:

!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who.
They want it what they like, it's easy if you do it right."

"don't let your past begin to let you down. just sing it out, just let it make sound and as it will hurt, it will be healed and found' cause it's normal that emotional pasts can spawn"

HEYHEYYOUYOU!!!!!!
HONESTLY SPEAKING. I KNOW WHAT I WANT NOW.
I KNOW WHO I AM.

ALTHOUGH NOW WHEN I SEE HIM.

I JUST DONT FEEL THE SAME ANYMORE.

NEITHER DOES MY HEART START BEATING TRIPLE TIME.

BUT I DO KNOW.

THAT MY HEART STILL ACHES FOR HIM..SOOOO YEAH(:

GOOD OR BAD THING IM GLAD AT LEAST I'VE LEARNT ALOT OF THINGS.

THIS YEAR, I FELT LOVED WHEN HE SAID HE HAD FEELINGS FOR ME TOO.

BUT I BROKE HIS HEART WHEN I DID SOMETHING STUPID.

YEAH.REGRETS.

THEN HE BROKE MINE.

WE'VE BOTH BEEN THROUGH VERY DARK DAYS.

AND NOW THINGS ARE STARTING TO LIGHTEN UP.

BUT ONE QUESTION STILL UNANSWERED.

WHERE DO I STAND? OUT OF YOUR HEART.

OR IN IT.

ANYWWWWAAAAYS!!!!!!!

SCHOOL WASSSS ALRRRIGHT.

I CAN FEEL THE STRESS....TIME TO GROW WHITE HAIRRRR!!!!

MY NEW NICKNAME IS CALLED UTERUS(:

GAYLE IS PENIS.

MIN IS....UHH....SCROTUM???HAHAHAHAH!

AND THERE ARE OTHER RETARDS WITH THIS URGH NICKNAMES TOO.

HAHAHAHHAHA!

AFTERRR SCHOOL!!!

WAITED AT THE BACKGATE BUS STOP FOR THE RETARDS.(:

WHILE WAITING REX STRANGLED ME.

HAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!ASS.

THEN I HAD TO GO TO THE FRONT GATE.RAAAH!

I WALKED WITH DEBRA/BOBO CAUSE WE WERE BOTH LONERS.

NICE SALMON!!!HAHAHAHA! NO.ITS NOT RAW DEBRA.

THEN IT STARTED POURING.

THE BOYS AT THE BUS STOP WERE LIKE.

"WOAAAH!!! THAT GIRL IS WET!!!"

THEN WHISTLE WHISTLE.

I WANTED TO KICK THEIR BALLS SO BADLY.HAHAHAHAA!!!!!

THEN WHEN I REACHED THE OTHER BUS STOPS.

I FELT LIKE A CELEBRITY!!!! not bragging.BUT I DID FEEL LIKE IT!!!

HAHAHHHA!!!!

ITS LIKE SLOWLY ONE...TWOO...THREE...FOUR...

OF THEM WEREKE" EH CHLOE!HEY CHLOE! CHLOE!!!"

I WAS LOOKING FOR THE BOYS.SO PRACTICALLY I WAS STARRING AT ALL OF THEM.HAHAHAHA!!!!

THEN THEY CAME.NOT SO DRENCHED...DAMN!!!!!

HAD LOTSA FUN AND CRAPPING IN MACS(:

RIKHIL.SCOTT.DEREK.ABEL(((((:

SOON!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007, 3:02 AM

I BET YOU CANT HANDLE THIS;)

bestfriends wont always be there.
but whatever it is.i will always be here even if you think i wont:)

TODAY WAS SUPER DUPER UPER FUUUUN!!!!
anyways. FOR CA 3- MY RANK IN CLASS IS 30/42.
gotta study study stuuuudy!!!!!!!
i need new bras.its getting tighter.
hahahahaha!!!

i havent been talking to cheri.like for 2 days?
shes been with nadine. so yeah.
anyways im like having fun with gayyyle and miiin!
its like the old times(((:
once we are together. we will crap and laugh till our guts come out!
hahahha!!!!

I WILL NEVER EVER LET ANYONE MAKE MY DARLINGS SAD.
cheri.
gayle.
min.
illi.
chris.
zain.
rachel.
scott.
derek.
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i simple love making ms shekhu go crazy(:
haahahah!!!!!!!!! AIYAH GIRRRL...ONLY KNOW HOW TO CHALK CHALK CHALK.DREAM DREAM DREAM.

AFTER SCHOOOOL!!!!!!
MIN.GAYLE AND I WENT TO TANJONG AND BUY MUNCHY DONUTS.
OMG.ITS SUPER GOOD!!!!!
HAHAHA!!!!
THEN.WE MADE CHEESESTICKS.AND CRAPPED WHILE DOING IT.
SUPPPPPER FUUUN!!!

OMG.
LAST NIGHT SCOTT SMSED ME.
SCOTT:OMG!CHLOE!! I CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT TO TELL YOU THIS!!!
CHLOE: OMG.WHAT???? IT BETTER BE INTERESTING.SPILL!
SCOTT: I JUST WANTED TO SAY HI:)
CHLOE: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SCOTT WILLIAM WOODWORTH!!!! IM GONNA KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHHAA!!!!!
SCOTT: AT THE VERY MOST YOU WILL JUST PLUCK ALL MY HAIR OUT. RIGHT?............

OK! I CANT REMEMBER WHAT HE SAID.SO I LIKE TRIED TO RMBR.
SO YEAH! IT ISNT EXACTLY WHAT HE SAID.BUT SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
RETARD!

okay.i superly duperly miss him.):
when you're torn.
i will give you my smile.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007, 6:41 AM

baby,in another life.

awww!!!!!!!<3

hi gayle!!!(((((((((((((((((((((((:

adorable. I KNOW!!!!

ARRRHHH!!!!!!

IM POCKY PIG'S WIFE!!!!!!!!

I HAD MY SUCKY LUNCH AT 4 AND I LAID ON MY BED.

I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO SLEEP.

AND IN THE END I SLEPT FOR 2 HRS!!!!!!

AND WHEN I WOKE UP I ATE DINNER.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEED A PET.

I WANT A DOOOOG!!!!!

BUT THE LAST TIME I HAD A DOG. I CRIED TILL MY EYES WENT HOLLOW.

SO I GUESS I SHALL JUST KEEP A CUTE LITTLE HYPER HAMSTER THAT BITES EVERYONE((((:

GAYLE AND I WERE SUPER DUPER HYPER DURING I.T!

AND GEOGRAPHY.HAHAHA!!!!!

ITS LIKE.DURING GEOG WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TO THE WEB AND SEARCH FOR POLLUTION.

AND I WENT TO FIND FOR PAMELA ANDERSON AND CARMEN ELEKTRA.

HAHAHA!!!!! CHEEKY GIRLS!

TODAY WAS KINDA FUN IN SCHOOL.

!!!!

AND AFTER SCHOOL.

IT WAS RAINING LIKE SCOTT FLOODING THE WORLD.

OMG. I TAKE ONE STEP AND BOTH SHOES ALL GOT SOAKED!!!!!

I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET MAMA TO HAVE LUNCH.

BUT IN THE END DIDNT.

SO I TOOK BUS WITH DEREK!!!!!

OH MY.HE IS FREAKIN GAAAAY.HAHAHAA!

i miss you.

Monday, August 27, 2007, 6:05 AM

lay your armour down.

BOYS.BEST IN CAMWHORING.

GENESIS 2 CAMP(:

HAD HOME ECONS EXAM TOOOODAY!!!!!!
PANICKED. STRUGGLED.
BUT IN THE END! MY MINI QUICHES WERE GREAT(((((:
MIN'S QUICHES WERE EATEN ALL BY CLASSMATES.LOL!
I SAVED 2 FOR CHERI(:

WENT TO PP WITH MIN AND GAYLE.
IN THE BUS WE WERE SUPER RETARDED.
DROPPED THE SPRING ONIONS ON THE FLOOR NON STOP!!!
EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT US!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

even if the stars collide.

even if darkness breaks in.

even if all of my fears are right before me.

my heart wont be untangled with the strings of yours.

but it will snap anyway.

Sunday, August 26, 2007, 7:42 AM

IT COMES AND GO.AND NOW IT STAYS.

pass few days were tough.
there were some memories i gotta remember(:
having a hell of a time just in a little playground with my brother.
its something i wont forget.(:
shaun, i will never let any harm get to you.ever.(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIIIS!!!!
not every birthday parties are perfect.
but things will find its way to make it right(:

Today was one of the days i feared the most!
yeah.i couldnt take it anymore.
i couldnt smile without a reason.
seeing illi and rach smiling.
i got so jealous.
how did they manage to smile???
while i cant. i felt so alone.

i broke down.but i forced myself to hand the flyers out.
i forced myself to smile.
but i couldnt. tears flowed even more.
chris.boon.illi.rach.zain. thanks(:
its been a long time i felt loved.
not so alone.

the word love. does it mean anything at all?

DEREK: caring for the person? and sacrificing for him/her. giving your heart.

LEAH: um.

GAYLE: when you feel for someone truly from the heart and not just lusting for that person. a feel from the heart la. something like that. HAHA

SCOTT: Well, to me, love is something that’s so beautiful. Especially if both partners are feeling it. But once that someone loses his or her love for you, then it’s the most painful thing you could ever suffer. And once you’ve fallen for someone, and that person decides to love you back, then you’ve gotta be the luckiest person on the planet.

JOEL: couples which stay together till their 70 and help each other when is sickness is love not just iunfatuation. and the whirlwind ride at the start.

to me,

IM NOT IN THE POSTION TO SAY THAT LOVE’S BEAUTIFUL OR WHATSOEVER. CAUSE I’VE NEVER FELT THE BEAUTY OF LOVE. I ONLY KNOW THAT TRUE LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT YOU WILL NEVER FORGET. PAIN OR PAINLESS. HARMFUL OR HARMLESS. IF YOU NEVER FELT TRUE LOVE. YOU’RE THE MOST UNLUCKY PERSON ON EARTH. BUT IF YOU FELT PAIN IN THE PROCESS OF TRUE LOVE. THAT’S THE WORST DISASTER THAT EVER HIT YOU.

my feelings for you are meant to come and go.
just like how your feelings for me came and went.
but no matter how much i pushed it away.
it stays.

Saturday, August 25, 2007, 8:33 AM

YOU CAN BE MY THUNDER(:

OH KAY.I THINK THIS PIC IS NICE!
WELL.FOR HORNY PEOPLE.
THEY'D THINK ITS..YEAH!ANYWAY!
I THINK ITS JUST PLAIN NICE(:
EXCEPT FOR THE KISS ME ON THE HAND THING.
:DDD!

IM DEPRRRRRIVED FROM SLEEP!
ANYWAY CHLOE'S NOT GONNA BLOG BOUT TODAY(:
BUT! SHE'LL DO SO TOMORROW ONCE! SHE GETS THE PICS FROM CHERI.ILLI AND RACH!PLUS JON.:D

LETS SEE.
I FIRST FELL IN LOVE IN KINDERGATEN 1.AND HIS CALLED JONATHAN.
LOST MY FIRST KISS TO JONATHAN AT KINDERGARTEN 1.
I HAD CRUSHES ON MILLIONS.
THE ONLY ONE I CAN REMEMBER IS RICHMOND.-PRIMARY 1.
THEN I HAD MORRRRE CRUSHES.
LIKE CHRISTOPHER AQUIRRE TAN.-PRIMARY 5.
SECONDARY 1- HUGE CRUSH ON SCOTT WOODWORTH.
IN THE END I HATED HIM(:
SECONDARY 1- WHY DID I FELL IN LOVE WITH PAUL?OMG.
SECONDARY 1- BOYFRIEND->KENNETH LIM.NOT SO INTERESTING.
SECONDARY 1- BOYFRIEND->HAAZIQ. DONT WANNA TALK BOUT IT.
AND SOME MORE.BUT I CANT REMEMBER.

THIS YR'S LIST HAS SHORTEN.
CAUSE IM BEING A FOOL.
AND I DONT PLAN TO HAVE ANY ANYMORE.(:

WELL.
AS FAR AS I KNOW.
WHATEVER OR WHOEVER GUY THAT I KNOW.
LIKES ME OR NOT. OR WHETHER IS HE ULTRA HOT.
IM SORRY(:
IM NOT INTERESTED.
I DONT KNOW WHY.
BUT YEAH!HAHAHAHA!!!!

I ONLY KNOW THAT THE ONLY ONE WHO OCCUPIES MY MIND.
AND MY HEART.
IS ONE PERSON.
AND CHLOE, STOP BEING SUCH A FOOL(:
FACE REALITY GIRL.

Friday, August 24, 2007, 4:25 AM

If you leave me tonight, i'll wake up alone.

HEYHEYHEEEEY!!!!

IM HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!:))))
MY DADDY WILL BE BACK HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!
AND HE WILL BE WATCHING ME SING((((((((((((((((((:
YAY!!! IM GONNA USE MY BDAY MONEY TO BUY A PRETTY PRETTY DRESS!!!!

AND THE BEST THING IS THAT.
I WILL BE ABLE TO SPEND MY CHRISTMAS WITH MY FAMILY.
CHERI.ILLI.DOM!!!AND I DONT KNOW ABOUT ANDRE):
BUT I DO KNOW BOON.JOEL.CHRIS AND OTHERS WILL BE SERVING THAT MASS!!!:DDDD!

my morning was sooo bad./sad.
jude was talking about that boy.
so practically.my whole morning was sad.hahaha!!!!
i dont know.but sometimes when people talk about him
i will smile till the world goes blind!
and also. yeah sad.
aahahahaha!!!!

YAY!!!! I LOVE MUSCLES(((((:
i've been feeling down.
so i've been jogging round the park.
and just letting it all out on writing.drawing.running.weights.
AND I HAD A BADDDDD BODY ACHE LAST NIGHT!
AND TODAY!!!TADAA! ARMS HARD((((:

I TOASTED MYSELF PEANUT BUTTER JELLY SANDWICHE FOR DINNER.
AND IT WAS CHAO DA!
AND NOW IM HAPPILY SIPPING ON CHOC ICEBLENDED BUBBLE TEA:D!
BE JEALOUS.
HAHAHAHHA!

i dont know why.
but i feel like im becoming CLOSER-CLOSER to cheri!!!
and CLOSER to illi.minny and gaaaayle!!!!!:))))
im so happy!!!!!
its like last night was the first time me and joel CONCEICAO had a proper conversation!!! after we sorta fell out!:D!

OOOOH!!!
I WANNA GROW UP AND BE A ROCKSTAR!!!!!!!
OR. CAR RACER!
OR. A CHEF AND EXPLODE THE KITCHEN!!WHOOOOHOOO!!!!!!

:(
:D MY DADDY JUST CALLED ME AND TOLD ME NOT TO BE SO MISCHIEVOUS.
HAHAHHA!!CAUSE I TOLD MY MOM TO TELL MY CCA TEACHER THAT MY SIS WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND I HAD TO LEAVE EARLY FOR CCA.
HAHAHAHHAA!!!!

my sis is in nightschool now.
so i practically have the whole room to myself((((:
and i can ransack her things!!!!
MUAHAHAHA!!!!!:DDD!

OHOHOH!!!!
DEREK EXPLODES THE WORLD.
SCOTT FLOODS THE WORLD.
WITH.THEIR LIQUID!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND PS:THEY SAID IT THEMSELVES:DDDD!

POP YOUR CHERRY PEOPLE!!!HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
*POP!*

ANYWAYS!
CHERI! PLSPLSPLS!!!!UPDATE!!!!!
CHRIS!!!! AT 12AM, YOU'RE GONNA BE ONE YR OLDER!!!!!!
HAPPY BDAY COOCOO!!!!!
MIN! DONT WORRY! MIN always falls off the CLIFF right?!?!?!
LEAH! CHEER UP!BE STRONG! AND DONT GIVE UP ON WHAT AND WHO YOU LOVE(:
SARAH KELLY GUNTER!STOP STARRING AT CHERI AND STOP DISTURBING DEREK YOU ASSSSS!!!!!

Thursday, August 23, 2007, 12:43 AM

TOUCH AND GO!!!!!

WE KICKED ASSES:) -2006

WE'LL SHOW YOU WHAT WE CAN DO!

NO ONE CAN EVER BRING US DOWN(:

NOOB YEARS! 2005. WE WERE A MESS;)

GRAD NIGHT!!!!2005. NEVER FORGOTTEN YOU GIRLS!

THERES FUN WHEN THERES THE MI-LIAN!

THIS WAS WHEN I WAS 6 YRS OLD.IMAGINE HOW LONG I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR ANOTHER DAY JUST LIKE THIS.

2006- how did time fly?

WE JUST LOVE KUNGFU! HOOHA!

MAKE SPACE FOR US PEOPLE!:D

no matter what i do to her, she will still be my sis(:

this is my new year! 2007

WE SHARE THE SAME INTERESTS.:D

I SIMPLY LOVE PISTOLS(:

HELLO THERE!!!!:)

ps: before i start! im like in a mixed of emotions now. so mind the madness;)

this are the few pics that makes me smile now and then:)

well.now i guess its about time i've came to realise i had a great life!

well.my history.

and im sure my present will work out just fine(:

its just up to me to make it right!

damn! i simply love my chinese teacher!!!!

she caught me cheating during chinese spelling test.

and i totally got screwed.

today she called me.and i apologised.

BUT BEFORE THAT.

I WAS LIKE"OMG.EAR STUDS!!!!"

then i took all out! she laughed at me.ass

so far.this are the results i've gotten!

well.not the overall.but just the papers!

math- 12/35-TOTALLY FLUNG!!!!

science- 21/ 30? FORGOT.

geography- 16/25 - DESERVE IT FOR ONE NIGHT LAST MIN STUDYING.

chinese- 19.5/40 -I CAN TELL MY TEACHER HATES ME!

well.

sam said. life is short.so live it to the fullest.

the period of time you live is just the smallest period of time.

because your life in paradise is eternity.

so i guess i will try my very best to live it(:

i told min.

hurt every part of me.

but not my heart.

cause no matter what disease or whatever you have.

the worst is a broken heart.

i miss cheri choo!!!!:)

she FINALLY CAME TO SCHOOL.

i miss illi!!!!!

i can only see her on sat):

my ass is practically spreading now.BYYYE!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007, 6:39 AM

dont be so scared.its harder for me.

who is that girl i see.

friendship cant be drawn on paper. but theres cheri and chloe!

"i walked away from you with a heart. you walked away from me without one"

no. im not bringing myself down.

i've been struggling.alot.

yeah.im weak.when i see you.

im strong.when my heart forces me to.

this isnt a game.

yeah.its a game for two.

but no one loses.no one wins.

one walks away with his/her heart intact.

one leaves without one.

its been hard for me.

seeing that you dont understand.

on my way while walking down the field.

i stopped.

and walked back to the bus stop.

but i told myself/.im here. ready to be broken. ready for anything and everything that i dont know whats in store for me.

and its so predictable.

so please,

i've not changed.

i want something real.not out of pity.or guilt.

ANYWAY.

cheri, you'll never be replaced:)

and you can trust me on that.

went granny-style grocery shopping with chow huimin!

just that we were modern enough to roll a trolley.:)

SHE L.O.V.E.S THICKENED CREAM.

we had fun:D

baking mini quiches. brownies/cookie-like. cheese sticks!

thank you cheri.

thank you huimin.

thank you derek.

thank you gayle.

thank you illi.

thank you crystal.

thank you nigel.

thank you joshua.

love,

me.

Monday, August 20, 2007, 3:13 AM

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BROKEN HEART.

"I've fallen down and I can't do this alone"

"This heart, it beats, beats for only you"

"Your voice is heaven, but it hurts."

"Your words are memories, but they burn. "

"Baby just say goodnight, i'll be gone tomorrow."

got home. back of my heel was bleeding.

i felt like adding salt on it.

how sad.it stopped bleeding.

yeah.this is serious.

how serious my broken heart is.

anyway it was already broken.

and it can break as much as it wants.

i never gave up.

now i will.

you dont need time to think.

i already know what you will say.

and i dont wanna hear it.cause i dont think my heart can take much more.

i never took relationships seriously this year.

cause i never wanted my heart to break again.

now my heart took it seriously.

and again its broken.

shoot me.but not my heart.

i love you.

Sunday, August 19, 2007, 2:43 AM

Until The Day I Die.

grrrreat! my uzap's working AGAIN.!!!!:DDD!
and im having shitty meals once again:(
BUT I KINDA ENJOY IT:)
anyway/
yeah.i can see how things are sucking here.
after min said in our conversation "how long you like him already sia?"
yeah.i realised what trouble im in.
CANT GOD CREATE PEOPLE WITHOUT FEELINGS?!
i mean.
one sided love isnt what i want.
cause it just sucks for me.

and you will never see me.
cause im not the girl whos in your heart.

Saturday, August 18, 2007, 10:39 AM

THINGS LEFT UNSAID.WILL BE SAID.

"i fake a smile so he wont see."

"when everything is wrong, we move along"

JUST DONE WATCHING ONE TREE HILL SEEEASON 3!

NAH.NOT DONE.JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE FIRST 3 EPISODES:)

ITS 2.10AM!

AND I STILL CANT GO TO SLEEP.

TOO MANY THINGS ON MY MIND I GUESS.

THE "SOMETHING" THAT IS RUNNING THROUGH MY SPINNING HEAD NOW IS.

IF I EVER TOLD WHAT I NEVER WANTED TO.

THIS WHOLE FRIENDSHIP

THING WOULD END.

THINGS MIGHT BE BETTER.WELL.FOR ME.

AFTER SAYING WHAT I WANTED TO.

BUT IF I LEFT THINGS UNSAID.

THIS WHOLE FRIENDSHIP THING WOULD STILL BE HERE.

BUT I WOULD BE JUST LIKE NOW.

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS.

HOW CAN LIFE BE SO COMPLICATED?

HOW UNPREDICTABLE CAN IT BE?

WELL.THIS IS LIFE.

YOU'D NEVER KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT.

SO FACE WHATS COMING TO YOU.

AND MAKE IT RIGHT:)

SO!TODAY WAS ONE DIFF DAY OF ALL THE OTHER.WELL.FOR THE WEEK.HAHA!!!!

OTHER THAN DRAGGING MYSELF TO THE TOILET.GOING TO SCHOOL. USING THE COM. SMSING.

TODAY. I SLEPT FOR AS LOONG AS I LIKE.:DDD!

BUT! I WOKE UP LIKE DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES CAUSE MY FREAKIN BRO WAS PLAYING THE SONG "UMBRELLA-RIHANNA"

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!

THIS WHOLE SONG ONLY SAYS ABOUT ONE THING- STANDING UNDER MY UMBRELLA.

AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

SO YEAH.

THEN!!!!! AS USUAL.

CHLOE GETS FRUSTRATED CAUSE SHE FINDS NO BREAKFAST!!!RAAAH!

SO.CHLOE FRIES AN EGG WHILE TOASTING BREAD IN THE OVEN.

USES BUTTER INSTEAD OF OIL.WEIRD.BUT SHHH!!!HAHAHAHA!

AND TUH DAAA!!!!!

THE BREAD WAS CHAODA!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

THANK GOODNESS THE EGG WASNT CHAODA.

OR CHLOE WOULD BE THE FRYING ONE!!!!!

WENT TO PARKWAY.

CHERI.CHRIS.ZAIN.CHLOE(CHERI'S SIS).JONATHAN WERE THERE.

THEN I FORGOT WHAT WE DID.

NOT MUCH!

HAHHA!

CAT.CLASS!

OH MY.IT WAS SOOOOO FUN!!!!!!!

ACTUALLY. MARK MADE IT SO DAMN BORING.

BUT! CHLOE TURNS BOREDOM TO FUN!:D

ME.CHERI.ILLI AND RACH SANG WHERE IS THE LOVE!

AND.

TO MAKE IT MORE FUN!

RAPPING! ANDDD! SOME STUPID ACTIONS SO THAT ALL 3 OF THEM WOULD AT LEAST SMILE!!!!

HAHAHA!!!!!

AFTER CLASS.

SCOTT PASSED ME ONETREEHILL!!!! DINGDINGDING!!!!

EARLY MORNINGS WATCHIN OTH IS BACK!!!WHEEHEE!!!

HAHA!!!! SCOTT.SORRY BOUT YOUR HIP BONE.

HAHAHAHAHA!!! I WANTED TO HIT YOUR ASS.

BUT OH WELL! WHO MADE YOU SO TALL?!??!?!

HAHAHA!

WENT FOR MASS WITH CHERI!

ASS FIGHT:)

I ALMOST MADE HER FELL!

HAHAHAHAHHA!!!

SEE THE ASS POWER;)

AFTER MASS.CHERI WENT TO HAVE DINNER WITH HER FAMMMM!!

SO!I WAS ALONE.

SMSED PEOPLE IF I COULD DISTURB THEM.

GAR!!!!

I ENDED UP GOING TO PP WITH BRYAN.

CAUSE I SAW HIM AT THE BUS STOP.

HAAHAA!

YEAH.

I HAD A CUP OF BUBBLE TEA FOR DINNER!!!!:DDDD!

AND!

HE ONLY HAD 5 BUCKS.

I HAD SOME FEW CENTS.

WE WENT TO THEEEE....ARCADE!!!

FUNFUNFUN.

WENT HOME.

BYE!

Friday, August 17, 2007, 5:10 AM

boy,i love you so.

"i cant find the words to tell you"
"the memory remains a tiny spark"
"undo this hurt you caused, uncry this tears that fall everynight."
"i'd be lost if i lost you."

THANK THE COW!
ITS FRIDAY!!!AT LAST.
THATS THE GOOD PART.
THE BAD BAD PART IS THAT IM SPENDING THE FRIDAY AT HOME.BLOGGING.:(!

I TOTALLY SCREWED MATH UP!!!!!!
OH WELL! I WOULDNT MIND PASSING ALL SUBS EXCEPT

MATH!
GAR! I STINK .TRAINING WAS TIIIRING.
WE HAD THIS CYCLING COURSE THING.
NOPE.I WASNT AT THE LEAST INTERESTED IN THE INSTRUCTOR.:)

IN THE FIRST PLACE.
WHEN CCA STARTED.I WAS ALREADY LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT TO END.
HAHAHAHA!

CHERI TOTALLY FREAKED ME OUT DURING RECESS! WITH ALL THE GHOST STORIES ALL!
IM A SUCKER WHEN IT COMES TO DARKNESS OR LONELINESS OR GHOSTS!!!!!!
I WILL DIE ON THE SPOT.
HAHAHAHA!
SPEAKING OF GHOSTS. I CANT FORGET HOW I FREAKED OUT SO BADLY LAST YR IN CHURCH,WE HAD THIS G2 HALLOWEEN PARTY.
I CRIED WHEN WE WERE IN THE FIRST HAUNTED ROOM!

AND I ALMOST FELL IN THE HAUNTED HOUSE WITH SCOTT AND DEREK AND ALL!

PLUS! WHAT A SCREAMER I WAS IN THE HAUNTED HOUSE WITH CHERI AND ILLI AND ALL!!!HAHAHA!!!!
this are memories i will NEVER forget!!!hahahaha!

i caaaan wear my neeeew darling sneakers tomorrow!!!
YIPPPIEEE!!!!!!:DDDD!!!
IM SICK OF POSTING SAD SAD SAD HEARTBREAKING POSTS.
SO I SHALL JUST LEAVE SOME SENTENCES ABOUT HOW IM FEELING RIGHT NOW AT THE TOP.
SOOO YEAAAH.

I MISS THE TIMES WHEN MY NANNY.MOMMY OR DADDY PATS ME TO SLEEP.
AND LEAVES WITH A GOODNIGHT KISS.
I REALLY MISS THOSE TIMES :(
AND I STILL HAVE MY GIANT RED ELMOOOO SOFT TOYYY!!!!!!:))))
IT FREAKS ME OUT AT NIGHT;)

SO! AFTER CCA.
SAW ALDE IN THE SAME BUS AS MUA!
JOEL LEFT ME WITH A MISS CALL SO THAT I COULD CALL HIM BACK.
RAAAAH! AND HERE I AM.ALONE AGAIN.
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.

Thursday, August 16, 2007, 3:11 AM

I WANNA STEAL YOUR PAIN;)

"answers that we'll never find."

HIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!:)))))

CHERI CHOO DID THIS FOOOR ME!!!!

AWW..SO SWEET!!!HAHAHAHA!

THANK YOU BESTIE;)!

WE LOOK LIKE WE'RE SPASMING.

HAHAHAHAHHA!

oooh...I THINK BABIES ARE CUTE CREATURES:)

ANYWAY!!!!!

I FAILED MY CHINESE BY HALF MARK:'(

OH WELL! ITS CHINESE AFTERALL! MEANT TO BE FAILED AINT IT:)

I SLEPT FOR 1 HR PEACEFULLY!

my sis said that i slept like i was deprived from sleep.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

drool all.hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SORRY RIGHT! IM SUPER TIRED!!!!

MUG.MUG.MUG!!!!!

TOMORROW'S MATH. ITS GONNA MURDER MEEE!!!!

2 MORE WEEKS TO SEPTEMBER HOLS!!!!:)))))

IM GONNA....PIERCE MOREMOREMOREEEE!!!!!

TEAR DOWN ALL OF THE POSTERS ON MY CLOSET.

PLUS ALL MY EX LETTERS AND EVERYTHING.

IM GONNA THROW IT ALL AWAY.:)

IM GLAD I STILL HAVE MY SOFT TOOOOYS:D!!!!

I WANT TO THROW AWAY ALL OF MY BARBIE DOLLS.

THEY FREAK ME OUT.

NO WONDER WHY I PULLED OUT THEIR HEADS WHEN I WAS YOUNG.

HAHAHAHHA!!!!!

I WANT TO GET PETS.

I WANT A DOG. BUT I CANT.

SO I'LL JUST MAKE DO WITH HAMSTERS;))))))!

SCHOOL WAS BOOOOORING!

ITS LIKE EVERYONE'S HAVING FEUDS WITH EVERYONE.

OH WELL!

BITCH AND GOSSIP ALL YOU LIKE.

IM JUST STANDING THERE CLOSING BOTH EARS:))))

oh my.why bring your day down like that???Tsk tsk tsk/

HELLO MATHEMATICS!

HEY BOY.YOU GOT TO GET OFF MY MIND SO THAT MATHS CAN BE STORED IN MY BRAIN.

THANK YOU!!!!:)

Wednesday, August 15, 2007, 1:45 AM

maybe if my heart stops beating.it wont hurt this much.

"One day you'll get sick of saying that everything's alright.

And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending.

Just like I am tonight."

I GOT TOTALLY SEXUALLY HARASSED BY

SOPHIA.MIN.VIC AND GAYLE THIS MORNING DURING P.E!!!!

we were doing gymastics.

and then when it was my turn on the gym mat.

sophia pounced on me!!!!

and then all of them touched me everywhere!!

hahahaaha!

this are my friends. maniacs like me;)))!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cheri loves getting free food from me:)

well.I CANT LET HER NOT EAT!

MUSTMUSTMUST EAT!

in fact.shes like the only one i actually eat with.

when i go home.

its just the computer and i.

im sick of being alone.

im sick of waiting.

im sick of keeping things to myself.

im sick of fake smiles.

whats so great about him that i see?

why is it that i cant go on without him?

why am i hurting myself by pretending everything's okay.

who am i now?

ANYWAY.

my heart's already broken.

and it cant get anymore broken.

this lonely thing and heartbroken thing is gettin old.

I WANT TO MOVVVVVE ON!

haha!if i wanted to i would have done so since forever:)

i shall just let the days pass by.

cause i dont know what to do.

im used to being alone anyway.

i can get used to seeing him with another girl again.

doesnt really make a difference.

ANYWAY!!!!!

I PASSED MY SCIIIIIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23/30:) A1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DADDY.DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?????:))))!

im doing all this not for myself.

im doing this for my daddy. so that he will not worry about me,.

and. by doing this.

i thought that if i passed well. i would be happy.

HAHA!!!!! seems like its not working either.

sigh.whatever.

maybe if i take out my heart i will feel better.

dreams are meant for sleeping arent they?

well.i've only got one dream. and i want it to come true.

but the fact is,

it never will:)

OHOHOH!!!!!!! I DREW LOTS OF THINGS TODAY IN SCHOOL:)

I LOOOVEEEE DRAWING!!!

and. i think rainbows are beautiful.

i shall request from god a night when there are rainbows.

IMAGINE THAT!

Monday, August 13, 2007, 5:12 AM

stay with me tonight.

HEY FREAKS LIKE ME!
WELL.I KNOW THERES A NUMBER OUT THERE.
CAUSE I KNOW ALL OF MY GOODFRIENDS ARE.HAHAHAHA!
SO!
TODAY ROCKED ASS FOR A LIL WHILE:)
I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING CHINESE!!!!!!
failfailfailfail!!!!
imagine. in secondary one, A1!
now in secondary two. F9.
see the splendid diff?HAHAHAHA!

SOPHIA PINCHED MY ****.
DAAAAAMN PAIN!!!!!!
STILL IS. GAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BERG! YOU DIE TOMORRROW!HAHAHAHAH!

TOTALLY CRAPPED OUT WITH SU AND CHERI AGAIN DURING RELIGIOUS CLASS!!!
OMG. LOUDEST FART THIS YR!!!
STORY OF THE YEAR:)
RECESS WAS SO CRAZY.
GAYLE AND MIN.STRANGLING EACH OTHER.
SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PIC! tsssssssk!!!!! :(

YAY!!!!
CHLOE'S GOING OUT WITH CHERI TOMORROW!!!!
WHEE HEE!!!!!
TALK TO ME.TELL ME YOUR NAME:D
OMG.MY WILLIAM HUNG MADNESS IS BACK!
I JUST WATCHED "SHE BANGS" VIDEO BY WILLIAM.
HAHAHAHHAA!!!!!
YOU CAN LAUGH TILL YOUR GUTS COMES OUT.LOL!!!!

anyway.
you're living me with no more air to breathe.
i cant take it anymore.
im just pissed off.im sorry.

Sunday, August 12, 2007, 3:05 AM

lead me on:)

this is the cute emoguy that chris and cheri saw in the bus!
and they thought i'd find him cute.hahaha!TRUE.:D

MEET THE REDS! WE'RE SO HOT! PHEW!

EVERYONE!MEET CHERI! AND SHE LOVES GREEN.

WE DID THIS.AND WE DID THAT:P!

WARNING! THE SIMS ARE HERE!

IM TRYING TO MAKE MY EYES AS BIG AS THEIRS!

SO!

THIS HAS BEEN THE GOOD DAYS.

TODAY WASNT REALLY A GOOD ONE THO.

SO MANY THINGS IN MY MIND.COUNTLESS.

AND I CANT MAKE A DECISION OUT OF IT.

I WANT TO MAKE A DECISION THAT I WONT REGRET!

IM TRYING MY VERY BEST TO PUT BACK THAT SMILE ON MY FACE THAT I LOST.

AND YESTERDAY DEFINTELY WAS REALLY THE DAY WHEN I LOST IT.

IM LISTENING TO GAVIN DEGRAW'S SONGS NOW.

THE LYRICS REALLY HELP MAN!

i want to be myself.but i dont know who i am.

in fact im lost.

"i dont wanna be anything other than me"-gavin degraw.

IM SO DEAD FOR GEOGRAPHY TOMORROW.

IM IN A ROOM WHERE THERE ARE TEMPTATIONS!!!!!!!!

its like.when im writing notes.

i look around and i see....

-COMPUTER

-UZAP

-HANDPHONE.

-AND MY CLOSET!

and HAHA.you can do hell loads of things that are in my closet!!!!LOL.

i want to find myself.

i want to solve my problems now.

i want to do what i have to do:)

and i will.

Saturday, August 11, 2007, 7:05 AM

EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED.

IM DONE WITH ALL THIS.
FORCING MYSELF TO PRETEND IM OKAY.
EVERYONE PRETENDS TO CARE.
THE FACT IS.
NO ONE CARES IF YOU DIE OR NOT.
THEY JUST HAVE TO ATTEND YOUR FUNERAL AND CRY CROCODILE TEARS.
NO ONE CARES/.THEY DONT EVEN LOVE YOU.
THE WORDS I LOVE YOU DOESNT MEAN A THING.

WHEN I LOOK INTO HIS EYES.
ALL I SEE ISNT ME.
ITS HER.
I HATE TO PRETEND.
I HATE TO FEEL HEARTBROKEN.
I HATE TO BE ME.
I HATE TO BE ALIVE.
I NEED YOU TO KNOW.
NO,.YOU DONT WANT TO KNOW.

IN THE END OF THE DAY.
YOU WILL BE THE ONE WIPING YOUR OWN TEARS AWAY.
NOT HIM.NOT NO ONE ELSE.

I ALSO THOUGHT THAT I WOULD LOVE IT SO MUCH WHEN MY FATHER CAME HOME.
IT TURNS OUT THAT ALL I CAN DO.
IS DISAPPOINT HIM.
DISAPPOINT EVERYONE.
EVEN THE PEOPLE YOU CARE MOST ABOUT HAD TO DISAPPOINT YOU.

EVERYONE WOULD HAVE THE HAPPINESS THAT THEY WANT IF IM NOT IN THIS WORLD.

Friday, August 10, 2007, 4:44 AM

FEEL MY HEART BURN.

OH MY.YESTERDAY AND TODAY ROCKED!!!
OKOK.

YESTERDAY.

SPENT MY MORNING WATCHING ONE TREE HILL:)I THINK ITS BECOMING A HABIT!HAHAHA!
WENT TO PARKWAY TO MEET CHRIS AND CHERI.
OH MY.WE WERE ALL RED!!!!!!
I WANT TO POST PICS FROM YESTERDAY.
BUT CHERI'S BLOGSKIN CHANGED.SO YEAH!I CANT COPY AND PASTE:(

IT WAS SUPER DUPER UPER FUN!
WE COULDNT GET THE NDP TICKETS.
WE MET BOON AND HIS GF!

SO WE FOLLOWED THEM AND INTRUDE THEIR PRIVACY.
HAHAHAHA!
YESTERDAY WE HAD TO CLIMB RAILINGS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD TO CROSS OVER!HAHAHAH!
SEE HOW DESPERATE WE WERE.

OMG.DURING THE FIREWORKS.
CHRIS AND CHERI WERE LIKE STANDING ON THE RAILING.
AND THEN I HITTED THIS GUY'S BUTT CAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS CHRIS'S!!!
HAHAHAHA!
I WAS LIKE"EH!YOUR ASS DAMN BIG!I CANNOT SEE!"
AND IT WAS SOME FOREIGN MAN!
HAHAHAHA!!!OMG.I TOTALLY LOST MY FACE.
LOL!!!!!!!!!

THEN WE WENT TO MARINA SQUARE.
FORGOT WHAT WE DID THERE.
THEN WENT HOME.
IT WAS GREAT BUT NOT SO FOR ME.
CAUSE CHERI HAD CHRIS.
BOON HAD HIS GF.
AND ME!!!!YEAH.HAHAHAA!
BLAME MYSELF FOR CHOOSING TO WAIT.
AND NOT ACCEPTING ANY OTHER GUYS.

ANYWAY!

TODAY.

HAHAHAA!!!!
MADE SCOTT WAIT FOREVER.
LOL!
WHEN I WAS STILL AT HOME HE WAS ALREADY WAITING.
DEREK AND MATT CAME LATER.TSK TSK!

WE TOOK THE TRAIN TO CITY HALL.
OMG.DUH WE CRAPPED ALOT WHEN WE WERE IN THE TRAIN.
HAHAHA!!!!!
BOUGHT TICKETS FOR DISTURBIA.
WE ATE AT STARBUCKS!
ACTUALLY.I DRANK.
AND TOOK A TINSY WINSY OF DEREK'S CHEESECAKE.
HAHAHAHA!
AS USUAL.
SICK STUFF.
LOL!

THE THEATRE WAS LIKE ALMOST TOTALLY EMPTY!!!!
WE TOOK THE SPECIAL COUCH SEATS:)
WHEN THE LIGHTS WERE STILL ON.
WE WERE FOOLING AROUND IN FRONT OF THE THEATRE.
DANCE ALL.
HAHAHAHHAHA!

THEN SUDDENLY THE LIGHTS WENT OFF!!!!!
OMG.SUPER SCARY.
SO I RAN UP.HAHAHA!
THE SHOW WAS GREAT MAN!
SCOTT MATT AND DEREK GOT SO HORNY WHEN IT WAS THE SICK PART.
OMG.
HAHAA!

I SCREAMED ALOT.
AND DEREK JUMPED ALOT.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

AND THEN BLAHBLAHBLAH!
I LOVE THIS 2 DAYS!
DADDY'S COMING HOME TODAY!
BUT HE FORGOT THE MP4'S SO NVM!NEXT TIME.

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